Random Thoughts from a Brilliant Mind

Absorbing Man - Parokya ni Edgar

You can beat me up, call me names…
Steal my bike, go insane…
I don’t care if you rearrange my face i won’t mind…

You can burn my toys and the books I read…
Still it won’t matter to me…
Coz with one big gulp I’ll swallow it up and smile, oh yeah…

Because I’m the incredible absorbing man
And I’m gonna do the best I can…
Till you finally understand…

I am calm, I’m serene…
Not a word is getting through to me when you scream…
I’m a sponge…I soak it up…
All the crap you put me through won’t make me give up…

Because I’m the incredible absorbing man
And I’m gonna do the best I can…
Because I’m the incredible absorbing man
And I’m gonna do the best I can…
Till you finally understand…

I will never falter, I will never quit…
You’ll never find another who’ll put up with you’re shit…
I will never falter, I will never quit…
You’ll never find another who’ll put up with you’re shit…
I will never falter, I will never quit…
You’ll never find another who’ll put up with you’re shit…
I will never falter…

Because I’m the incredible absorbing man
And I’m gonna do the best I can…
Because I’m the incredible absorbing man
And I’m gonna do the best I can…
Till you finally understand…

it was night. and it was raining…

and as the raindrops fell with a steady rhythm on the bed, listening. listening to the sounds from the outside, listening to the voices in my head, listening for that telltale beep from my cellphone which signalled her presence.

she said she had a problem. it was her brother, who left very early one morning with no apparent plans to come back. and to make it worse, she told me, her boyfriend wasn’t as faithful as she thought. she asked me why it was always men who always broke her heart, and i almost asked her, "what about me?"

but i didn’t. i knew she didn’t like those kind of questions, especially when she isn’t in a good mood. and even if she was. so i just said, "i wish i was there. so that i could hold your hand, look you in the eye and say, ‘don’t worry. everything is gonna be alright.’"

it kept raining. and i kept listening. and the voices in my head kept saying, "don’t worry. everything is gonna be alright."

well, minsan lang ako makialam sa politics…

but right now things are getting way out of hand…ghosts in the closet can come out with quite a dramatic entrance…or exit…whatever…pero di ba…the issue of the validity of gma’s rule as president supposedly died with fpj…but now the things they thought they’ve taken care of are coming out of the woodwork like termites…and although they’re trying to put on a straight face to the public, somehow we sense there’s something broiling underneath the surface…i just hope i can jump aside when all hell breaks loose…

but somehow naiisip ko rin na mejo flimsy yung side ng opensa…they’re going all out armed only with a recorded conversation(wiretapped at that) that supposedly involved the comelec chair and gma…eh sa panahon natin sobrang dali mag edit ng voice signature…i can make myself sound like erap on tape if i really wanted to(and if i knew how)…the point here is that their case, which rests solely on that controversial recording, can and will fall apart easily…pero naiisip ko rin na kung ganon lang kahina yung katwiran nila, bakit pa sila nagpupumilit?maybe that recording does have merit…i dunno…

and as usual…the media just fans the flame and turns it into a freaking firestorm…they claim they choose no side pero obvious naman na kumakampi sila laban sa gobyerno…by all means the media should be the one that mediates…dito sa atin media is politics in itself…

sana maayos na tong gulong to as soon as possible…samantala yung ibang mas importanteng isyu natatalikuran…pano yung bagong vat? pano yung patuloy na tumataas na presyo ng bilihin? hoy mga mokong tama nang dakdakan yan…there are more important things to do than speculate…

And now i concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And now I'll admit
In this fourth line
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

The clock on the tv says 8:39 pm
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That i love you, i love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

I’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And i will never let go
Will never let go.

But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i’m just not the one for you.

Lyrics from: www.tristancafe.com

The Day You Said Goodnight

                 Hale

Take me as you are,
Push me off the roadthe sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun;
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming,
Calling out your name.
And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all i goAnd all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

The calmness in your face
That i see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And i do reside in your hear
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what i'll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all
Right.

To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me.
The day you said goodnight 

Lyrics from: www.tristancafe.com

well, it’s my birthday…yet again…

after eighteen of these…things…you kinda get bored…not to mention older…but now that i think about it, i suddenly have no reason to celebrate my birthday anymore…not that i don’t want to, of course…

what i mean is, as you grow older, people expect more of you, and sometimes it’s hard to meet a lot of those expectations…minsan kasi people tend to over-generalize pagdating sa edad…pag ganito ka katanda dapat ganito ka…di ka pwede gumawa ng ganito, di ka pwede sa ganun…

it’s so exasperating kasi minsan iba yung context ng ibang tao pagdating sa mga bagay-bagay…and they can’t understand why you are standing where you are, when you’re not like everyone else…i guess it’s hard to step out of your shoes and put yourself in someone else’s…

saka so far my birthdays have always been so-and-so…well i guess it’s nobody’s fault anyways, since almost all of them (except for my first six or seven i guess) have been spent away from my family…laging natatapat sa school day and you never really get to celebrate…kaya siguro i don’t feel anything much pagdating ng araw na to…or maybe i’m just so darned callous na di ko na-aapreciate yung mga ginagawa ng iba para sa akin…

siguro i’ll just follow the saying, "when in rome, do as the romans do…". bale kunwari nag eenjoy din ako…kunwari masaya…pa libre libre dito, pa hapi hapi bertdey doon…tapos the next day…wala lang…

This game is fun…haha ^^

Although the name may sound intimidating, this game is actually more fun than what "Kingdom of Loathing(KoL)" suggests. the first thing you see when you get to the main page is two stick figures weilding swords way too big for them…and wider, too.

Based on the typical pen-and-paper DND style games you played while in high school, KoL differs from the others in that it is a game revolving around food. Yes, young padawan, food. The basic currency is meat, don’t ask me why. You can choose to become one of the six types of adventurers that roam the land: Seal Clubber, Turtle Tamer, Sauceror, Pastamancer, Disco Bandit and Accordion Theif. As you progress through the game, you will find yourself facing ghostly macaroni, giant bowling balls, drunks, and more drunks(including yourself).

So far I am still in the stage more commonly known in the gaming world as being "a n00b", and I am still exploring, discovering stuff(like a dungeon full of dungeons) and learning things that I never thought I would.

To all those hardcore gamers out there, take a bite on the wild side and stuff yourself full of culinary gaming goodness. Visit www.kingdomofloathing.com and prepare to devour and be devoured.

i am nocturnal…

i am a creature of the night. i dwell in the radiance of the shadows, i bask in the brilliance of the dark. i am nocturnal…

i thrive where many perish, i abound where none survive. i belong in the darkness, in the night, where angels dare not tread i dance. where champions falter i stand tall, where heroes fall i conquer. i am nocturnal…

where i dwell mystery abounds, where i tread danger surely follows. behind every corner there may be a foe, around every bend there may be conflict. i am courting disaster, i am approaching oblivion, evisceration, annihilation, i am walking into my doom. i do not care, i am nocturnal…

kung babasahin mo parang kung sino akong bampira na nagkakalat pag gabi…pero di naman ako ganun, yung tipong nabubulag pag nasisilakan ng araw…mejo lang naman…^^ pano ba naman, long weekend…what else to do but switch on the nocturnal mode and refuse to conform to the dictates of society…i choose not to live by day and sleep at night…pag araw kasi ewan ko…the daylight doesn’t seem to appeal to my consciousness…i am more at home pag gabi, pag madilim…i’m sure marami akong katulad pero i’m certain iba naman ang circumstances namin…if you know what i mean…hehehe

‘twixt the dusk and dawn…

where the light is the slave, and the darkness reigns…

ere the sun returns…

play the dirge from the grave, melancholy strains…

Well i’m here again…taking up too much useless space in the already-crowded world of cyberspace…it would be nice if i actually had something to say…right now i do…it’s about a life falling apart…along with the dreams, the aspirations, hopes, possibilities, opportunities…it’s about making the wrong decisions, taking the wrong turns, thinking the wrong thoughts…it’s about me…

two years ago i was this cocky kid who thought he can do it all, who believed that he can do anything without anyone’s help…who thought he was infallible, indestructable, somehow immune to all the hardships and sufferings that everyone else around him went through…two years ago i saw myself going through life without a hitch, without bumping even the slightest obstacle, smooth sailing all the way…i had the means, and i had the faculties, i told myself…what is going to stop me now?

but two years changed all that…now i’m falling apart at the seams, torn to pieces by a world that neither cares nor forgives those who stumble…there are no second chances…time weaves a straight line, no loops, no turning back…all you can do is plod on ahead and try to shrug everything off, and hope that somewhere along the way you’ll see the light at the end of the tunnel…and when you get there maybe, just maybe, you’ll find some time to rest…

Hi hello me back…i r feeling wasted right now…The fact that i woke up a few moments ago and that my first meal of the day is long overdue(which is about 12 hours ago) proves that…

Anyway since i’m wasted i think i’ll take advantage of it and write just about anything…Well more of nothing but nevermind that…Right now i’m thinking how will i survive being cut off from the net…i’ll let you guys in on a little secret…nakikigamit lang ako ng connection ni mark…hehe^^ pero since lilipat na sya ng bhaus and i’m not sure kung makakapasok ako sa dorm, my glory days of unlimited free internet access are going down the drain…di naman kasi sulit gumamit ng card and pldt dial-up is UBER SLOW…XD maybe i should subscribe to bayantel too…kaso baka di ko rin masulit and in the end i’ll just beat myself up and that’s not a very good thing to think about…

Methinks i’ll just cross the bridge when i get there…punta na lang muna ako philcoa and grab a bite before mag 10pm at masarhan ako ng gate…i don’t wanna take the long cut…no one does…but that’s another story…hehe^^